New Day

Sometimes, the next Day brings New Smiles, New Excitement and New Appreciation

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Determination

It is how you see the World and People.

It is how you set your mind to Happiness and Determination.

I am Setting Mine.

Despite the Bad Dream and Bad wake-up day.

Despite Problems that may Persist.

I am Determined to be Happy and Work my Ass off!!

Miss Partying

Am I Controlling myself too much?

Perhaps. But Screwing up is Part of the Fun.

If things don't work out - 180 degree Change will be Next.

I am still Young.

Not even 21!

All Smiles!

Can't Wait

but first get rid of the hideous exams

Gotta show them, parents, others and me.

I Can do it!

Time

Sometimes I wonder are we compatible? Can we withstand time?

Why do we work so hard when we know we are going to die? Why not enjoy life?

Why oh why?

Tried to be Neutral. Why Cant more People see How I see Things?

Guess now I have to Focus on Exams. Period. People. Stress. Used to People Throwing Things at me. Maybe that was how he felt?

Maybe I m just growing up. or away? This sucks.

Study study !

another door of dimension

time is slipping away. i have been feeling numb. i am definitely in my stage of downtown. everything is gona change soon.

even i changed. not as loud, crazy, lame, unpredictable as i was. am i growing old? haha maybe just playing safe, cos i dont want so much drama in my life. i am enjoying the stability now.. but im getting tired of it.. but what bout it? it is all gona change once i land in newcastle.

it is as if i am in d scene where everyone is walking past me in the streets while i am just standing there, observing them silently...

stability. yeah, we yearn for them but i cant to seem balance both excitement n stability in life. yeah, someone did mention i am always playing the extreme card. what if i get bored easily, getting attached, doing the right thing, playing the responsible role. i dont want to suddenly explode all of a sudden and throw away everything i have .

yea, i dont trust people that much. never did. cant blame me. i cant be bothered this time of the year. yeah, i admit i am harsh. deal with it, alright.

i definitely need a change of scene, new air to breathe. going to the U.K would do me good. but i have to adapt, be independent, and BALANCE. studies and play. i wonder can i snag a first- class? will i have to throw all my playtime?

well, i know i have to shine once again. it is now or never in my final year. maybe i will find what i wanna do in my life. mayb i will come to terms who i am becoming. maybe i will understand my ever-changing behaviour every year. mayb my behaviour changes depending on my needs and priorities. or maybe we are jus growing up. Great, ... cos i HATE that word.

but who says growing up does not mean u dont have fun anymore?

it's going downhill

i know im gona lose it. i have tried. why cant things work out? yeah, why not? cos life is tough and we shud face it as an adult, where u cant gt tings that u alwiz want.

im tired of all this. compromise is no longer there. whats with the sudden anger and just ignoring me. this part of me is just going downhill. i wont tell others bout this. im used to it.

its both sides' fault . i never blame u.y cant we just do this together instead of ignoring me? tears just drop. i cant hold it in anymore.

if this wont work out i tink im gona take a break when im in d uk. it is time for me-time in this one year period.

if no1 is gona help me, im just gona help myself. thats hw it is.

ive committed, ive not lied, ive tried, i have seen u tried. but not this time.

i hv predicted change. n yeah life will alwiz have changes. but y now?

what do u wanna me do den? i asked u. u just ignore. keeping that - just go home- look. why cant we just try to settle dis? straight in d face.

whatever happens, i still have myself to rely on. and that's that.